I’m overwhelmed. My department of three is reduced to a department of one for the next two to six weeks. Unplanned illness and planned surgery swept through our department, and I am the one left standing. I do have someone helping when she can, which is greatly appreciated. I will never refuse help.
I’m also halfway through my horrible statistics class. The midterm was brutal. By far one of the most difficult tests I have ever taken. I managed to get a B (yay for weighted curves!) but I am so unmotivated to buckle down and finish. I need to just do it. Just finish.
So instead of focusing on the overwhelm, I am going to focus on the happy. There are so many people, places, things, and thoughts that make me happy. It is too easy to overlook them when life gets rough.
Lulu. She is my sun. My blonde haired, blue-eyed, sarcastic, hilarious, beautiful, and frustrating world. Everything begins and ends with Lulu.
Husband. I’ve loved him since our second date in 2002. 12 years of knowing, 8 years of dating, and 5 years of marriage later – I still love him. And when I want to punch him, I think about some of the other husbands I know, and then I only want to smack him. Also the best father in the world. We aren’t perfect, but it works.
Mom and Dad. They made me. They raised me. We all survived those first 18-22 years of my life (barely) and I am a good person because of them. It wasn’t always easy and fun, but they never gave up on me.
MIL and FIL. They made Husband. They raised him. They all survived and he is a good person because of them. They are amazing grandparents to their three grandkids. They are kind and generous. They accepted me into their family since day one.
Nieces and nephews. They range from 6 months to 13 years. Nephews are smart and funny, and love Lulu so much. I don’t get to see nieces as often as I want, but their photos and videos always light up my day. Just knowing those four amazing little girls exist makes my world a better place.
Linsey and Alysha. My best friends. I can’t wait to grow into old ladies with them.
Family and friends not mentioned above. They are my support network. Nothing would work in my life without them.
Iowa City, lately. Not my favorite place during winter, but so so nice the other four months of the year! Sometimes I remember to just look around, at the trees, hills, creatures, farm fields, and old houses. It is so different from what I grew up knowing, and I am constantly in awe of it.
My job, and the people who come with it. It’s the first job I’ve ever had where I feel like I have a future. Despite being overwhelmed because of unforseen circumstances, I do truly enjoy coming to work every day. A really amazing support network resides here, and if it weren’t for work I would never have applied to grad school.
Grad School. I don’t know if it will prove a blessing or a curse, but grad school is something exciting on the horizon that I am looking forward to. It is my second chance to prove to myself that I am that smart girl who existed so long ago.
Fabric. Cutting it up and sewing it into something beautiful and useful and cherished is delightful. I like to imagine the pretty things it will become.
Books. All sorts. And when all else fails, I can escape reality through the words of Austen.
Writing. I am not a great writer, and I have no aspirations of ever having a well read blog, but writing is my personal therapy. Perhaps deep down a pet dream would be to have a blog like hers, but I am realistic (and not remotely as talented as she is).
Modern science. Without it, I would probably be a raving lunatic!
And, since everything begins and ends with Lulu,…